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Sun, 24 Jun 2018 10:40:51 -0400

This is interesting. I feel like this is a lot of what I’ve been...

Mon, 18 Jun 2018 14:09:51 -0400

This is interesting. I feel like this is a lot of what I’ve been trying to say about a lot of things… that things are difficult because unless you know a person well, you never really know if what you’re saying means to them what it means to you. This is why writing for strangers is difficult.

This is why people write for a “community” - the “community” is unified by conforming their signifiers to the same signified meaning (not consciously/overtly, of course). But if I can’t find a community whose definitions can accommodate the meanings I want to portray… it’s difficult.

I’m also sure that some class I taught touched on this, but then when I asked questions about it, the professor just told me not to ask and that it wouldn’t be on the test. But by the way it was covered so superficially, I get the sense that they themselves didn’t really get it.

Another thing that I just saw was talking about this writer’s early life, and that he lived between several different cultures and religions, and saw that each group saw itself as the only group that knew the “truth”… but he realized that it was far more likely that they were all wrong than that any of them were right. That’s sort of my experience of the world, too. Except obviously not as horrible or life-threatening as living during World War II…

Tagged by @sugirandomPut your whole music library on shuffle, then post the first 10 songs that come...

Mon, 18 Jun 2018 13:10:41 -0400

Tagged by @sugirandom

Put your whole music library on shuffle, then post the first 10 songs that come up.

- (Opera. Lots of opera. Not going to put those on the list, just going to put a count up here, because if I did put those, the list would be all opera, and that wouldn’t be fun because I don’t think a lot of people here care about that… if you do, definitely tell me, though! But yeah, each opera will be like… over 30 tracks sometimes, and then I have multiple recordings of the same opera… so that adds up to a lot.)

Donizetti - 12 from Don Pasquale, 3 from L’elisir d’amore

Mozart - 2 from Idomeneo, 6 from Cosi fan tutte, 1 from Zauberflote 1 from Le Nozze di Figaro

Bizet - 11 from Carmen, 1 from Les Pecheurs de perles

1. Over the Rainbow - Marginal #4

2. Crystal Switch - Lagrange Point

3. Sazanka - John

4. Flow Away - Growth

5. Ayanagi Showtime - Otori Arrange ver. - Starmyu

6. Seven Stories - Angela (K7S…. trailer music that isn’t actually a theme?)

7. Javert’s Soliloquy - Les Miserables (25th anniversary concert)

8. nox ~ kaze no record ~ - Yoru (Procella)

9. Mirai no Piece - TsukiCro

10. The Press Conference - Anastasia (Broadway)

11. Wonderful Wonder! - StarMyu (this is one of my favorite Starmyu songs <3)

12. Kimi dake no sign - Momochi (…. dearvo)

13. Crazy Baby Show - SolidS

14. Pandora Box - Unicorn Jr.

15. Both Sides of the Coin - The Mystery of Edwin Drood (recent Broadway)

…. I made it 15, sorry.

As for tagging…. @negative-diva? @driftwoodwolf? Anyone else who wants to? Sorry if I didn’t tag you and you want to be tagged, please tag yourself, I just don’t want to bother anyone……..

Here’s a drawing though. It’s Aoi from Tsukiuta but I think the fandom would just think it’s weird,...

Sun, 17 Jun 2018 14:58:38 -0400

Here’s a drawing though. It’s Aoi from Tsukiuta but I think the fandom would just think it’s weird, so I’m not going to tag it…

It’s late mermay, obviously. ….. because may.

If someone had an art business and a patreon and all that and they were making a living off of...

Sat, 16 Jun 2018 11:22:01 -0400

If someone *had* an art business and a patreon and all that and they *were* making a living off of that, and then one day, all their followers and customers vanished, would you tell *them* “don’t worry about it, just draw for yourself”?

Then don’t tell me that, either.

Can we talk about this “draw for yourself” thing?People always say, “you can’t worry about what...

Sat, 16 Jun 2018 06:44:52 -0400

Can we talk about this “draw for yourself” thing?

People always say, “you can’t worry about what other people think, you have to draw for yourself!” Like, to be a real artist, you have to study hard, practice like crazy to improve, and then when you finish a drawing, just… look at it, smile, close the sketchbook, and never care if anyone sees.

If someone wants to write songs for multiple musicians, and they play their songs on the piano and sing them themselves (even when they’re meant for multiple singers), or maybe digitally mix in a second vocal track of their own singing or a track of them playing another instrument… and then they say that someday, they really want to hear a whole band playing one of their songs live, would you tell them, “oh, don’t want that. You have to just write for yourself!”

If someone wants to be an actor, and their dream is to star in a professional production, and they keep going to auditions, and sometimes they just fail, but sometimes they almost make it… and then they don’t, and they wonder, “what do I have to improve to get them to cast me?”, would you tell them, “Don’t worry about that, you just have to act for yourself! You just have to be satisfied saying lines in front of a mirror in your room, with no castmates, no director, no sound, no set, no costumes, no feedback, no one to make memories with…. if you want any of that, you’re just whining for attention and you should be ashamed. You’re doing this for the wrong reasons, you’re not a real artist.”

You wouldn’t say that - well, if you would, you don’t understand what it is at all - but why is it okay to say that to a visual artist or fiction writer?

Why are visual artists not allowed to want to collaborate?

Why are novelists not allowed to want to see their work discussed?

Why are comic artists not allowed to go into an anime goods store and see all the merchandise and think, “I hope that someday I can see my characters there”?

Why are writers not allowed to say, “someday, I want to collaborate with a musician to make a soundtrack to my story,” or even, to want some sort of acted adaptation of their work made?

Why are some artists expected to be satisfied with never, ever sharing their work, to the point where you tell them they’re not a “real artist” if they want to share it?

You know, you’re also saying that professionals, by definition, aren’t real artists because they show their work to editors and their audience.

Or do you assume that every person who’s a professional just… drew for themselves, and smiled at it, and closed the sketchbook, and never showed their work to anyone intentionally, until one day, a friend happened to see by accident, and say “wow, that’s really good!” And got them a professional contract just by chance?

No.

There are some people who became successful by accident. Those handful of people who, a few years ago at the dawn of these new things, made a ton of money off of Kindle or Youtube, spent it all, got burnt out, weren’t prepared for the negative attention along with the positive, and weren’t prepare when their audiences moved on. Right now, most of them are back where they started, like Alice coming back from Wonderland.

Real professionals work hard to improve, and to get their work in front of people. That doesn’t make them fake artists, that doesn’t make them “sell-outs” for attention, it just means that they want their art to mean something to someone other than themselves. Why is that wrong?

It means they want to talk to the artists they admire, who are doing the innovative things in their field, and exploring new ideas. It means that they want to create something that can’t be contained in some sketchbook in their drawer.

Maybe I’m not good enough at drawing to be allowed to dream. Maybe that’s what you’re trying to tell me? Is that why people react with shock and befuddlement when I say that I really do want to publish my work professionally? I know I’m bad at drawing, but that’s not the point. It’s not right to tell anyone to aim low, to stay in that small town their whole lives and never find anything better.

I think that when people say this, they don’t really understand what they’re saying. This is what you’re saying.

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Fri, 15 Jun 2018 11:44:13 -0400

brightersoul2: LisOeuf♪vol.09 [Release on 6/28]

Fri, 15 Jun 2018 08:19:25 -0400

brightersoul2:

LisOeuf♪vol.09 [Release on 6/28]

I read a book about people who fake their deaths. And the author interviewed a bunch of conspiracy...

Thu, 14 Jun 2018 18:42:32 -0400

I read a book about people who fake their deaths.

And the author interviewed a bunch of conspiracy theorists who think Michael Jackson faked his death and that he’s alive, including one person who made a “documentary” about it, and who actually believed that this random stranger she met on the internet was actually Michael Jackson, because the person’s screenname was “Peter Pan”.

And the author said that conspiracy theorists are inspiring, because they believe in something passionately, and the author says that that’s “beautiful” even if what they believe in makes no sense. And that conspiracy theorists are a “resistance movement” and that that makes them automatically good, even if what they’re “resisting against” is basic sense.

So like… when people tell me that I’m “overthinking” something, or that it’s wrong of me to think logically or have standards, because it’s ruining your fun if I don’t just automatically love everything…. I’m going to think of that author, because that’s what you sound like.

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Tue, 12 Jun 2018 02:13:39 -0400

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Reblogging because guess who voices this character

I feel like the life that I’ve spent alone has sucked out all of the “magic” and potential enjoyment...

Sun, 10 Jun 2018 13:27:18 -0400

I feel like the life that I’ve spent alone has sucked out all of the “magic” and potential enjoyment that one could have in life.

Like, I’ve always been into learning things, and like… most of the times, when I learn things, I end up feeling ashamed that I didn’t know them sooner. Like, the next person I meet is going to look down on me because I only just learned this.

And then I hear other people talking about discovering things, and it felt like “magic” for them, and it was so amazing, and like… part of me just things “Well, if I’d learned about that thing with friends, instead of alone, it might have felt like magic, too” or, “If I had been at a decent place in my professional life when I learned about that thing, it might have felt like magic, too”. But it didn’t for me, because it just…

Here’s the thing… I have shelves of books, and a reference collection of over 35,000 pictures, that I need to learn from. I have those books, I have those pictures saved on my computer, so I have no excuses for not being able to draw something as technically masterful as any of those things. The only reason I still suck is because of my own laziness.

So like… partially, when I see good art, I feel ashamed, because I think “I have no excuses for not being that good”. “I’m too old to not be at that level yet.”

Like… if I had been more responsible, and learned from everything I have already, then finding something new might feel like that to me, too. But like… getting that pile down to a manageable size before looking for new things… it’s because those other people get that magic from having friends, which gives them the motivation to learn from the things they have, and like, friends who are around their level, learning from the same things…

I just feel like I’m not responsible. If I were more responsible, I’d have friends.

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Sun, 10 Jun 2018 10:51:36 -0400

shion-sonozaki:Look at them……..

Sun, 10 Jun 2018 09:12:41 -0400

shion-sonozaki:

Look at them……..

I have a really dumb relationships with sketchbooks… with work in general, actually....

Sun, 10 Jun 2018 09:06:33 -0400

I have a really dumb relationships with sketchbooks… with work in general, actually. Like… I think that I have an idea, and it’s great, but as soon as I start it, I get into like, work/checklist mode with it. Like, I have to finish it as quickly as possible. I need to have something to post, or like, I need to move on to the next thing. But like… I never give myself a chance to work on something.

Except for digital things, when I “give myself a chance” so much that I never finish anything…

Sensuality is not wrongSensuality is not wrongSensuality is not wrong.Pleasure is not wrong....

Sun, 10 Jun 2018 05:59:06 -0400

Sensuality is not wrong

Sensuality is not wrong.

Pleasure is not wrong. Pleasure is not inherently corrupting.

It is not wrong to like touching soft things. It is not wrong to enjoy luxury. It is not wrong to like sex - doing it, or just reading about it, or drawing it, or thinking about configurations you could probably never actually find in real life.

It is not wrong to like jewelry and elegant clothes.

It is not wrong to like impeccably crafted things, and fine materials, and intricate designs. That’s art! Why does art that shows the “gritty side of life, unflinchingly” have to be the only thing that’s valid?

I’m sick of seeing books that say sensuality is a sign of corruption. I’m sick of books that say that tough, rugged warriors are more moral. I’m sick of books that say that these things are shameful.

I write for people who need to find someone who says these things are good. Not, “Well, nobody’s perfect, so it’s okay to have a few pieces of jewelry”. To hear that it’s actually okay to really love these things. It doesn’t make you stupid, it doesn’t make you shallow, and it doesn’t make you less worthy than some tough warrior.

… A lot of people would just tell me to just forget about it, “just brush it off, lol”,...

Sat, 09 Jun 2018 01:46:42 -0400

… A lot of people would just tell me to just forget about it, “just brush it off, lol”, don’t “overthink” it, but these things are important…

I was on a website that wasn’t even about things like that, just life in general, and it had one of those “autoplay” videos, and they were talking about gender. Specifically, they were talking about what it means to be a man. Which is probably to help men not be “toxically masculine” and not be aggressive and violent. Which is good.

But like… the person who was talking about it, I think they were a therapist, or something. Or some sort of professor. (Female, if you’re wondering). And they were saying, “Can you really think of yourself as not part of one or the other category? The answer is no, you can’t think of yourself as neither a man or a woman, because that would be like speaking a language without actually speaking that language.”

…..????

First of all: yes you can.

Second: That makes absolutely no sense.

Language and gender are both cultural/social constructs, but they’re completely different. Language is necessary to get by in life, gender isn’t. And you can speak a language without “identifying” as that culture. (By their logic, is learning a second language racist, because it’s expecting the student to give up their original culture? Or is it racist/ appropriation of the second language’s culture? Either way, it’s stupid. Everyone should learn a second language, and a third, and however many they can. It makes you smarter specifically because it takes you out of the thought constraints of your first language. And any language will constrain your thoughts if it’s the only one you speak.)

So, before that, the other person on the panel said, “What does it mean to be a man? Because, when I think of myself, and when I define myself, “man” isn’t at the top of that list.”

The psychologist/professor/whatever they are… is basically saying that, even if some binary gender isn’t at the top of the list, it needs to be on the list somewhere.

And if it’s on the list, then at some point, it comes into your mind, and it tells you what to do. At some point, it dictates the course that you take.

And that… is sexist.

That is what sexism is. Letting the idea of “masculine” or “feminine” dictate the course that one takes.

I don’t believe that males and females are born encoded differently. Their bodies are different, but that’s the only thing. The rest is forced onto them by society and culture.

Freedom and progress should mean removing those labels from life in every way.

It doesn’t mean giving some people the “right” to limit themselves to “e-f-g” instead of “a-b-c” or “x-y-z”. It means having options a through z, plus several other alphabets that binary people can’t begin to comprehend, available to everyone, every day, without any walls separating them.

Having a gender at all is sexist, because if “being a man” or “being a woman” or “feeling like a man” or “feeling like a woman” means anything to you at all, then… what does that even mean? It means that there are things only men can do (”x-y-z”) and there are things only women can do (”a-b-c”), and that no one ever can do both z and b. That doing both is impossible. And that e, or m, or r, are just… weird things that have no right to exist. And that any person who would consider it, or want to, is just “confused”, and needs therapy to sort them out and make them conform to one or the other, and as long as the therapy is open to letting them conform to either one, not just to their assigned-at-birth gender, then you think it’s okay to make them conform.

I don’t know, it just makes me really sad that the people who are considered to be on the forefront of gender equality, or sexuality, or whatever, are still sexist. You want “men” and “women” to relate to each other differently than in the past, but you still want them to relate to each other as “men and women”, not as “people”.

…….. I think a lot of non-binary people think that binary people really do have some special soul that ~identifies~ with their gender… no. All it is is that, when they were kids, when they did something gender-conforming, their parents and teachers gave them a pat on the head, and when they did something non-conforming, their parents and teachers scolded them, so when they see something gendered as adults, that memory of being pat on the head, or being scolded, comes up in their minds, like an animal. (not that literally, of course).

If you’re nonbinary, you’re not missing anything, it’s the binary people who are missing out. On half the world, as a matter of fact. And making the rest of us miss out on all the things that could get made, but don’t because they wouldn’t fit into either category and people wouldn’t know what to do with them.

The only worthwhile society is one that simply has no gender construct whatsoever. Even if it doesn’t happen within my lifetime, I still feel that way. What I need to do is just, to find people who want to live that way with me, and be with them, and just… not worry about everyone else.

I feel guilty for not finishing any art today.

Fri, 08 Jun 2018 08:48:33 -0400

I feel guilty for not finishing any art today.

Marginal #4 unveil cover art, song previews and tracklist for "GiVeMe"

Fri, 08 Jun 2018 07:40:34 -0400

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Marginal #4 unveil cover art, song previews and tracklist for “GiVeMe” #声優 #mg4

Rejet unveiled the title, cover art, tracklist and song previews for Marginal #4‘s upcoming single. (more…)

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aarunomura:MARGINAL#4′s 11th single「GiVeMe」jacket...

Fri, 08 Jun 2018 05:42:00 -0400

aarunomura:

MARGINAL#4′s 11th single「GiVeMe」jacket illustration

That hip <3<3<3 aaaahhh!!!!

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This is interesting. I feel like this is a lot of what I’ve been...

Tagged by @sugirandomPut your whole music library on shuffle, then post the first 10 songs that come...

Here’s a drawing though. It’s Aoi from Tsukiuta but I think the fandom would just think it’s weird,...

If someone *had* an art business and a patreon and all that and they *were* making a living off of...

Can we talk about this “draw for yourself” thing?People always say, “you can’t worry about what...

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brightersoul2: LisOeuf♪vol.09 [Release on 6/28]

I read a book about people who fake their deaths. And the author interviewed a bunch of conspiracy...

incorrectyume100quotes: (x)Submitted by @siphonon /...

I feel like the life that I’ve spent alone has sucked out all of the “magic” and potential enjoyment...

Video

shion-sonozaki:Look at them……..

I have a really dumb relationships with sketchbooks… with work in general, actually....

Sensuality is not wrongSensuality is not wrongSensuality is not wrong.Pleasure is not wrong....

… A lot of people would just tell me to just forget about it, “just brush it off, lol”,...

I feel guilty for not finishing any art today.

Marginal #4 unveil cover art, song previews and tracklist for "GiVeMe"

aarunomura:MARGINAL#4′s 11th single「GiVeMe」jacket...

If someone had an art business and a patreon and all that and they were making a living off of...